Sunday, January 31, 2010

She's cute.

Highlights of watching "A New Hope" with Allison (her first time):

- (after the scrolling intro) "Was I supposed to read that?"
- (after seeing Luke for the first time) "Oh darn it! I thought he was going to be cuter." (at this point she made a pros/cons list about whether or not she should finish. Luke's looks were a con)
- " he the lizard?"
- "No, the rebels lived in the Death Star!"

Friday, January 29, 2010

Baby VR

Kim told me that she hasn't been able to find a knit hat for baby #3, so I made one! (They don't know if it's a boy or a girl)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010


just putting this here so i have it mostly.

i found a little plot of land in the garden of eden
it was dirt and dirt is all the same
i tilled it with my two hands and i called it my very own
there was no one to dispute my claim

well you'd be shocked at the state of things
the whole place had just cleared right out
it was hotter'n hell, so i lay me by the spring for a spell, naked as a trout
the wandering eye that i have caught is as hot as a wandering sun
but i will want for nothing more in the garden
start again in my heart and into every heart but one

meet me in the garden of eden
bring a friend we are going to have ourselves a time
we are gonna have a garden party
it's on me, no siree, it's my dime
we broke our hearts in the war between st. george and the dragon
but both in equal parts are welcome to come along
we're inviting everyone

farewell to loves that i have known
even muddiest waters run
tell me what is meant by sittin' alone in the garden
see the __union in the year of 81.
the honor in __ might be done
i believe in innocence, little darling, start again.
i believe in anyone. ___ i believe in everyone.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Made me smile.

Today I emailed my mother to ask for a recipe. This is what I received in response:

"Hi Maria,
Do you want me to do your taxes again? Did I last year?? If so, send me your W-2s. Have you ever tried plain yogurt? Maybe you'd like it. We had another snow (actually ice) day today.

Love you,


Monday, January 18, 2010

Honor what exists.

The new title of this blog is taken from a David Bazan song, from his latest release, “Curse Your Branches.” This album, as with all of Bazan’s work, is full of poignant, thought-provoking lyrics. The album is bitter and heart-breaking, exploring Bazan’s falling out with God. The songs are angry, addressing the age-old question of suffering. This is most evident in the title track:

"Oh, falling leaves should curse their branches
For not letting them decide where they should fall
And not letting them refuse to fall at all."

Bazan’s move to agnosticism is, in the most callous phrasing, cliché. However, it is understandable, and people are often driven away from God in hard times. I have never reacted to suffering as intensely as Bazan has, and my faith in God has remained strong throughout my life. However, I find myself drawn again and again to the track "Bearing Witness." In this song Bazan, through his powerful skill as a lyricist, expresses the same attitude as in the rest of the album. However, in this song I find that what pushed him away from God is exactly what continually draws me to God.

“Let go of what you know and honor what exists
Son, that's what bearing witness is”

Hope College is in a period of grief. Yesterday, we learned of the death of two of our own. Emma Biagioni and David Otai were flying in a small, one engine aircraft that crashed in a field near the Tulip City Airport. They were widely known and loved at Hope, and the news hit hard.

However, on Sunday night at the Gathering, I did not see students cursing their God because of the fall of two fellow students. I saw students clinging to each other and strangers praying for each other. Dimnent was full to the rafters despite the somber mood and the cancellation of the normal Gathering service. Last night I truly saw, more than ever before, the community of Hope.

What I know is that the deaths of Emma and David were not fair. I know that Hope is grieving and angry. However, what I saw Sunday - what truly exists at Hope College right now - is a community that is grieving together. I see God in the community of Hope now more than ever. Our God reaches to us in our grief and brings us right back to him. We may not understand, but we can trust. And that is the witness I will bear.